To Do List

There are so many things on my "To Do List"!  One of the items is to pay more attention to this blog of mine.  I used to post descriptions and insight. Now I post mostly photos. I used to post weekly sometimes even daily.  Now I'm lucky if I post once a month! It's not that I don't enjoy blogging, because I DO.  It's just there never seems to be time any more to "do it right" you know what I mean?  And, if I'm being completely honest, I have to tell you all something.  I used to think I was typing to strangers, sharing with people I would most likely never cross paths with.  I used to believe I wrote for other Montessori teachers and parents who wanted or needed ideas.   Now, 500 followers later, I know this is not the case.  In fact, I've met a good many of my readers and I'm told regularly that my blog helped a handful of parents in my local community, survive "the toddler years".

In one way it's flattering and encouraging to know your reaching people, helping people, comforting people.  In another way it's intimidating.  And there is something un-nerving about revealing so much of one's life that people you hardly know feel comfortable coming up to you at say.... the library story hour and asking you about your birth story or your spirited child's diet??  True story people. 

Then there is the fact that I left a job I loved, working for a wonderful Montessori school, to start my own in home preschool.  I've been given the impression that some people in my community (who sniff out drama) think there is MORE to this story than there really is.  That, since I'm being completely open here, is fricking exhausting! Look: People resign from their places of employment and start somewhere new every day.  There is no big dramatic story to tell.  If you want to know more because you care about me then ask ME, don't troll my blog for dirt.  Okay, there I said it. 

So, moving on.  I love this blog, I'm really proud of it.  When I started it years ago, blogging was new.  I was one of a handful of Montessori teachers blogging and it felt so exciting to be part of something important.  I really felt that way.  Also, I had a toddler and if I didn't write to all of you, I think like many moms of toddlers, I would have gone a little batty.  Connecting with other moms was paramount to my existence. 

And so I feel like I need to share all this and see if folks still want me to share?   Is anyone reading this blog of mine?
In PEACE,
Montessori Mama